As many promises as I can and want to make now,

I can't. 

Well, at least things are different now.

That's good. 

I'm seeing certain things clearer too,

finally understanding what I don't want 

from all that.

Good news and bad news.

Good news is,

I forget easily. 

Bad news is, 

I forget easily. lol

I forget easily in a good way because

I forget a lot of shit people did to me,

or rather I let them go and decide not to remember

because it's not worth remembering

and it's human to err.

Bad thing about forgetting easily is that

I really forget a lot of important things people tell me

about themselves and I can't help it because 

I already have bad memory but 

I pushed myself further trying to let go and forget things

thus damaging my memory even further.

No joke. 

it's been getting worse. 

Then I forget the things that I'm suppose to remember 

that happened to others even though they expect me to.

Guys, 

I cannot even remember my own stuff,

give me a break. 

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Odd thing is,

what I thought about you,

about us, haven't changed.

I so strongly believe in it

even though I can clearly see where this is going

or rather not going 

but my heart still tells me all that. 

I hate my instincts sometimes. 

Like hello ah, 

can you not be a psychic already?!