21

So.. I turned 21 not over a month ago

and

it doesn't feel very different hahaha

and look at my terrible photoshop skills!

I tried to adjust my cake's exposure and all that.

neeeeways,

(and i quote myself from ig lol)

"This journey, I came so far 

Hoping and wishing upon stars

Meeting gems along the way

Along came diamonds, here to stay

Wasn't easy, but was fun

Pulled me through, you all did, my Sun.

Thank you for shaping me into the person I am today,

I am grateful for being appreciated and being tossed around like I don't matter

because here I am, stronger and better than I was before.

I don't always rely on people but when I do,

I choose the ones who can catch me when I fall and

y'all are the strong ones in my life because your minds and hearts are so precious,

especially thankful to those who pulled me through every time I hit bottom.

Here's to all of you,

especially the stronger mind and heart ones, thank you!"

I wanted to do a touching speech or

one that people would make people think twice but

that day itself was so busy and

it flew by without me clearly remembering much ahhaha

because everything was a blur.

When I panic, i usually don't remember things well

and then I had coloured contacts on that day,

which blurred a little of my vision and also made things worse.

Or maybe better, since i couldn't focus,

i probably didn't panic more than i actually would.

It was fun though,

i just hope that the next time i throw a party,

which must be a really special occasion since i really don't like

hosting events or throwing parties,

I GET TO EAT!!

I didn't get to eat at my birthday that day :(

SO SAD KNOW, PEOPLE TELLING ME HOW GOOD THE FOOD WAS

but i only got to eat some left over chicken rendang

which was the yummiest of all!!! but theres only leftover for that

BECAUSE IT WAS THE UGLIEST HAHAHAHAHA

HENG AH!!

Very glad that almost all the friends i invited came!! :D

Although not all my relatives were able to make it

but that's alright.

I was kinda sad at first when people started telling me they couldn't make it,

and stressing over the party all the time.

It got to a point where i thought if im going to feel like that

until the party and throughout the party itself,

what's the point?

I wouldn't be happy.

Then i realized the small things that made me sad didn't matter

as long as i was having fun and enjoying myself!

So i did!

I wanted to share my life thoughts but

this will do for now.

Thankful.