Alone,

I'm not strong enough,
nor am I absolutely weak
but I realized I cannot see or look at a source of pain.
It brings me back, throws me right back
to when I realized what happened.

I need someone, I need distraction
until I realize it's no longer pain
but only, and only, a lesson very well learnt.

But while I go through life,
please don't let the ends of the world that I can run to,
only be this little red dot.
I would very much like to be on boats and
breathe on different seas,
walk the pavements of different culture,
and sleep on beds to wake up and
be ever so curious about the place I'm at.
Please let me go everywhere and then
always let me come home,
safe.