Never thought this day would come by,
never thought this would happen now.

I know wishes are probably just us and hope,
but i solely wish on letting go right now.
And hopefully,
let go of all the others that i don't have to care about anymore.
Holding on to every single person you've ever cared for
is so tiring,
it's like a train that gets heavier every time someone boards the train
at each station it stops at
but no one alights.

Let go now, will you?
I shall let you do your job, Heart.
Please heal yourself,
let Mind help you.

I probably am not a nice person.

I know i have a sharp tongue;
the words i speak are not very kind.
I know i have a mean mind;
the thoughts i think are not very nice.

I usually, almost always,
treat a person how they treat me
or how i think they should be treated.
(non qualified judge here, probably a fail one)
But why do some people want to be treated better than
what i think they deserve from me?
I mean, you can't take your own medicine
then don't feed it to me in the first place.

I'm not saying i might be able to take mine
(i'm not sure, there will probably be a non stop quarrel)
but i learn what to stay away from fast.

Why does this person who give only as much or
lesser than what i give
(or as i interpret it to be from my point of view)
expect so much more from me.
W.H.Y?!

And she probably doesn't remember all the good times we had
or the things i did for her or gave her
or when i gave in to her.
And with this ^
My mind automatically remove some good stuff
from my memory too.

This is exactly how my mind works.
What you are to me,
I am to you.

Remember, i read more into you
than what you show.

That feeling when you

saw something you were so oblivious to.
got reminded by something you should't have forgotten.
chanced upon something you once saw that made you all happy on the inside.
see or know somebody that you care about is in pain.
know things about somebody that you cannot tell that person about.
know you could have done better at something but you let it go in the past.
learn about McD's producing hello kitties when you stopped eating their food but went to get it anyway for a kitty cos it makes you really happy.

haha all that different emotion.
were we made to feel this way?

/
So I watched a music video from a really, really, really long time ago
and it was so good.
Because you were watching people with real talent
that aren't really that good looking.
But talent, yes talent.
Talent without looks is nothing now
unless you are really, really, REALLY good i guess.

And have you seen a baby in person?
So tiny, barely one month old
always sleeping and really cute when making noise
(unless you are the baby's parents/grandma and he or she
is making noise or crying in the wee hours).
Too cute man, too cute.